I've had a bad cough for over a week now. Truthfully, we all have. But the past few days have been rough because my abs are so sore from coughing. My abs! The ones that are kinda worn out from carrying you too.
You have also been MUCH more active than usual over the past few days, constantly rolling and kicking and prodding. And now I wonder if you're reacting to the constant shaking that my abs are doing to you... what does it feel like for your cocoon in the world to be shaken like a snowglobe every few minutes without stop?
We had a lovely long Easter lunch with our friends and Kiki today. One of the topics that we talked through many times was this process of becoming an adult, a relentless discovery of More Stuff You Are In Charge Of. It's exhausting, frankly. Whether it's wedding planning or having young children or figuring out your life career, it's all got big stakes and it's all stressful.
Sometimes, depending on how tired you are, I think it can feel like you're living in a cocoon that's being shaken like a snowglobe every few minutes. There is no rest for the weary, one thing after the next, an endless list of life challenges.
And yet. The glimmer of hope and beauty that I also have come to find in the world is everything little and joyful between the shakes. It's watching for those moments, it's appreciating them. It's taking life into your own hands and just living the heck out of it.
So maybe instead of feeling shaken, you are surfing? Maybe whenever I cough you respond by disco dancing up a storm. I hope you are, little one. These skills will serve you so well once you're out... to look for the waves in the storm and ride them. Forget the perfect. Ignore what you always thought life would be. Just stay in touch with the waves around you and enjoy them as much as you can.
Love,
Your Mama
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